I question myself. What will people think? Am I crazy?

So many thoughts run through my head. And with many of them, I do ask myself if I am crazy. How can I go against the group think in so many areas. There are so many people in one area of their lives where they feel they need to go against the grain, but in others act just like everyone else. When they view themselves through the lens of faith, they go against the world. But when they view themselves through the lens of business they go right along with everyone. How can both be true?

But then perhaps I am just lazy, and I say that God will take care of it, I’ll just depend on him and sit back and watch. That is not it at all. I am not sitting back and watching anything. I am an active participant, seeking God’s will, and being led by the Spirit. In many ways my life is more difficult than others by choosing the narrow path.

I need to communicate who I am more. I think I do come across as just winging it, though that is not the case at all. But what is the case? How do I live my life, how do I orient my map? If my compass points towards God, True North, how do I navigate this world. And why don’t I explain that more to other people.

I do not measure life or business like many do. That I know. But how do I measure it.

Live by the Spirit. Lord, it is hard. I fail. Please give me strength, endurance, and encourage me to live by the Spirit. Help me walk with the Spirit. I cannot do this on my own. Only by walking with the Spirit will keep me from gratifying the flesh.

I went through a period of my life where I moved from having pretty concrete plans, allowing God to tear apart what I had built, and moving me to trust in him.

I am excited that there is unrest. The Spirit is a movin’ all over this land.